Esther’s Fragments

Stories gathered in the light. A diary of memory, ritual, and becoming.
These are personal reflections shaped by the waking world - where silence holds meaning, and the self reveals itself in fragments.

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Unrushed, Uncertain, and Free

How to allow yourself the time to discover?

The Girl I Put on the Mail
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The Girl I Put on the Mail

When I was at their concerts, I felt truly free, able to be myself, and happy. When I wrote to him, I felt safe, a sense of kinship, and when he thanked me for my letters, I felt seen. So I poured my heart out. It may sound silly, but Robert and The Radios were my lifeline in those days.

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The Girl I Locked Away
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The Girl I Locked Away

"I feel such deep sadness for my younger self, surrounded by friends, yet so incredibly alone."
This is a reflection on the girl I once locked away, the memories I buried, and the quiet courage it takes to open the box again.

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I Wish
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I Wish

“I wish I could be like a bird in the sky…”When I first heard these words, they weren’t sung by Nina Simone, who performed "I Wish I Knew How It Would Feel to Be Free" so beautifully, with so many layers of emotion and meaning. The first time I heard this song, it was performed by the Belgian band The Radios

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